~*Emma de la Flick*~'s Journal

Monday, July 15th, 2002

Subject:	[::end of the road::]
Time:	8:47 pm.
Mood:	blah.
Music:	THE HIVES.

It seems to be the end of the line for flicky.

But its a new era for [::thaila in the sky::]

So please add her. She is the new diary for the new image for the new me.

See you all there....

THIS DIARY IS NOW CLOSED

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Subject:	[::even though you're gone...::]
Time:	6:12 pm.
Mood:	lonely.

Theres a first time for everything. Something happened that never usually happens. Rob, Deb, Alan and Daz came to my house. My friends actually came to my house without me having to make them. Was nice. But as soon as they left, I walked into the garden where we all sat, and I felt empty/lonely/sad. It was a wierd feeling. Like my heart had been ripped out and then been re-installed incorrectly. But either way, it was nice when they were there.
Cold beers and cigarrettes in the sun. Perfect.

Tomorrow I'm gonna go and see Rob really early, and then see Razz, and then go to the pub. I'll be in Grantham from 8:30am till 11:00pm. Thats fourteen and a half hours. Woah. Thats a lotta time. Should be fun though. I'll be stuck at home doing ironing for the rest of the week knowing my luck. I'm gonna try my hardest to get out to have Razz week though. *fingers crossed*

I can't shake this feeling of being less than other people. Like I'm not even worth half as much as the dirt on their trainers. Really low. I need to go to the Doctors, due to too much blood loss. No, I haven't been cutting again. Its the other kind of blood loss. And its just too much. Not healthy.

Am bored. Might go and start a new diary...

I'll keep you all informed.

x x x x x

Sunday, July 14th, 2002

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Subject:	[::new era::]
Time:	11:05 am.
Mood:	excited.

Whoopsie. Ah well.

Guess what everyone!!!!!! I looked at my poll results, and some fucker put 10 votes for shaving my head. No way. However, ignoring that option, I have looked at my results, and done my hair to that style. If you don't know how I've got it done, then you'll just have to wait till Tuesday, or the next time I see you. *grins* I definitely like it. Mwahahhaha.

I'm off to the Sgt's Mess today. Sunday lunch. Dragging Chris along to it. Wooo. Heh heh. Any excuse to have a posh meal and stuff myself silly. The thing is... I'm wearing...
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a skirt. Yes. A skirt that I put on of my own accord. Not a school skirt... its got..... flowers. *screams*
!!!!!!!!!shock horror!!!!!! *colapses*

I know. It is wierd. I feel.... breezy. Its quite nice. But anyways. Thats that.

Went to see Resident Evil last night. I hid behind my popcorn. It was icky. But very good. My favourite bit was when that laser thingy cut them all up, especially when it was a grid, and that man's eye started to melt. Heh. Nice images for the squeamish there. *grins*

Well, see you all soon, and I wanna see your reactions.
Heh heh heh hehehhehhehe.

x x x x x x

PS. If anyone knows how I've got it, keep it quiet, otherwise you'll ruin it for everyone else, and we'll all hate you and chop you into little pieces. Mwahahha.

Friday, July 12th, 2002

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Time:	8:09 pm.
Mood:	accomplished.

0. TIME YOU START: 19:01
1. FULL NAME: Emma Jane Hainsworth
3. SCHOOL: KGGS
4. MASCOT: Chris Mascot?
5. NICKNAMES: em, emsy, flick, flicky, flickle, emma de la flick, emma j-ane, dilemma emma... the list goes on. Unfortunately.
6. BIRTHDAY: 17th January 1986
7. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?: Cardiff, Wales
8. AGE: 16
9. SCHOOL YEAR: 6th Form
12. SHOE SIZE: 5
13. HAIR COLOR: Brown, naturally blond highlights
14. EYE COLOR: Shitty brown
16. LAST CD YOU BOUGHT: Hundred Reasons
17. LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN THE CINEMA: Spiderman, but will be Resident Evil on Saturday
18. LAST MOVIE YOU RENTED: 10 Things I Hate About You
19. LEAST FAVORITE SUBJECT: Systems and Control
20. DO YOU ACTUALLY LIKE MATHS: Yes. It sucks.
21. LAST MOVIE YOU BOUGHT: I don't buy them, I get them bought for me. And it was Shrek.
22. DO YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND?: Yes
23. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?: Yes, many.
26. FAVORITE ACTRESS: Alyson Hannigan
27. FAVORITE ACTOR: Christian Slater/Michael J. Fox
28. FAVORITE MOVIE: Untamed Heart
30. FAVORITE SONG: Once Around the Block, Badly Drawn Boy
31. FAVORITE FOOD: KFC or anything really unhealthy.
32. FAVORITE COLOR: Blue
33. GOOD FRIENDS: Razz, Rob, Leanne, Nat, Kym... the list goes on really.
34. HOW LONG ARE YOU IN THE SHOWER? Half an hour *blushes*
35. FAV. PLACE TO GO ON VACATION: America
36. FAV. CITY TO CHILL IN: Nottingham, as long as my friends were there
37. WEAR A HAT?: Not a lot, but I will if my hair goes shitty
38. FAV. DRINK: Archers and Lemonade
39. WORST FEAR: Ants
40. HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE YOU TO GET READY TO GO TO SCHOOL IN THE MORNING: An hour and a half. (I wear made up AND I have flicky out hair!)
41. BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD?: Knowing that someone cares enough about you to risk their life (mwah, Razz)
42. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?: Rejection, oh, and whatever I'm feeling now.
43. BILL CLINTON: Grey hair
44. THE WHOLE ALIEN THING: definitely
45. LINDA TRIP: My aunt is called Linda...
46. TEENAGE SMOKING: Yes I do.
47. PREMARITAL SEX: Times have changed. Its accepted.
48. DRIVING DRUNK: Its a stupid idea.
49. DOING DRUGS: Not hard drugs. Ooo, prozac is fun.
50. MARYLYN MANSON: Love 'im. Love those teeth.
51. PUNK BANDS: God Save the Queen. Heh heh. True punk was in the late 70s/early 80s. Nothing can recreate it.
52. DEATH: Gets us all in the end. The bastard.
53. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: Nah. First date, thats possible.
54. A CERTAIN PERSON OUT THERE FOR YOU: I bloody well hope so.
55. JERRY SPRINGER: Fun fun fun. If you like that sort of thing.
56. SUICIDE: Considered it. Tried it.
57. ASSISTED SUICIDE: To stop pain, maybe. An easy escape, no way.
58. SOUTH PARK: Seriously.
59. CHARITY? Yeah.
60. GIRLS WITH LOTS Of MAKEUP? Not too much.

WHEN YOU SEE THIS NAME YOU THINK OF...
61. Ryan: Beard
62. Bob: Monkhouse
63. Zack: Screech
64. Danielle: Steele
65. Drew: Walsh
66. Stacey: Blonde
67. Stephanie: Rooke
68. Brian: the Brain.
69. Jessica: Chambers
70. Jason: and the golden fleece
71. Meghan: cheerleader
72. Caroline: My Mum
73. Heather: 'The Heathers'
74. Aaron: Ryan's brother
75. Amy: the best place to get clothes from
76. Lisa: Winter
77. Nathan: Clark. My Ex. I scratched NC into my arm. Stupid idea.
78. Will: Young >_<
79. Paul: Lyon ^_^
80. Eve: Adam
81. Cody: Boy Meets World?
82. David: My cousins ex boyfriend. Looks like a fitter version of Dom.
83. Veronica: Black.
84. Katherine: Katie Hodson
85. Catherine: Wheel
86. Melissa: Joan Hart
87. Laura: from Hollyoaks. The psycho bitch.
88. Amanda: thick black rimmed glasses
89. Billy: goats gruff
90. Justin: curly hair
91. Ricky: Bianca
92. Prestonario: ....
93. Jacob: Bible

WHICH IS BETTER
94. FOOD OR DRINK: Food. Although drink is necessary.
95. LAKE OR OCEAN: Ocean.
96. TV OR RADIO: Chris Moyles kicks ass. Otherwise its TV.
97. GOING TO THE MOVIES OR RENTING A MOVIES: Going to the movies. Good atmosphere. Despite the annoying Kevs.
98. BSB OR *NSYNC: BSB = Boy-bands Suck

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0. TIME YOU START: 19:01
1. FULL NAME: Emma Jane Hainsworth
3. SCHOOL: KGGS
4. MASCOT: Chris Mascot?
5. NICKNAMES: em, emsy, flick, flicky, flickle, emma de la flick, emma j-ane, dilemma emma... the list goes on. Unfortunately.
6. BIRTHDAY: 17th January 1986
7. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?: Cardiff, Wales
8. AGE: 16
9. SCHOOL YEAR: 6th Form
12. SHOE SIZE: 5
13. HAIR COLOR: Brown, naturally blond highlights
14. EYE COLOR: Shitty brown
16. LAST CD YOU BOUGHT: Hundred Reasons
17. LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN THE CINEMA: Spiderman, but will be Resident Evil on Saturday
18. LAST MOVIE YOU RENTED: 10 Things I Hate About You
19. LEAST FAVORITE SUBJECT: Systems and Control
20. DO YOU ACTUALLY LIKE MATHS: Yes. It sucks.
21. LAST MOVIE YOU BOUGHT: I don't buy them, I get them bought for me. And it was Shrek.
22. DO YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND?: Yes
23. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?: Yes, many.
26. FAVORITE ACTRESS: Alyson Hannigan
27. FAVORITE ACTOR: Christian Slater/Michael J. Fox
28. FAVORITE MOVIE: Untamed Heart
30. FAVORITE SONG: Once Around the Block, Badly Drawn Boy
31. FAVORITE FOOD: KFC or anything really unhealthy.
32. FAVORITE COLOR: Blue
33. GOOD FRIENDS: Razz, Rob, Leanne, Nat, Kym... the list goes on really.
34. HOW LONG ARE YOU IN THE SHOWER? Half an hour *blushes*
35. FAV. PLACE TO GO ON VACATION: America
36. FAV. CITY TO CHILL IN: Nottingham, as long as my friends were there
37. WEAR A HAT?: Not a lot, but I will if my hair goes shitty
38. FAV. DRINK: Archers and Lemonade
39. WORST FEAR: Ants
40. HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE YOU TO GET READY TO GO TO SCHOOL IN THE MORNING: An hour and a half. (I wear made up AND I have flicky out hair!)
41. BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD?: Knowing that someone cares enough about you to risk their life (mwah, Razz)
42. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?: Rejection, oh, and whatever I'm feeling now.
43. BILL CLINTON: Grey hair
44. THE WHOLE ALIEN THING: definitely
45. LINDA TRIP: My aunt is called Linda...
46. TEENAGE SMOKING: Yes I do.
47. PREMARITAL SEX: Times have changed. Its accepted.
48. DRIVING DRUNK: Its a stupid idea.
49. DOING DRUGS: Not hard drugs. Ooo, prozac is fun.
50. MARYLYN MANSON: Love 'im. Love those teeth.
51. PUNK BANDS: God Save the Queen. Heh heh. True punk was in the late 70s/early 80s. Nothing can recreate it.
52. DEATH: Gets us all in the end. The bastard.
53. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: Nah. First date, thats possible.
54. A CERTAIN PERSON OUT THERE FOR YOU: I bloody well hope so.
55. JERRY SPRINGER: Fun fun fun. If you like that sort of thing.
56. SUICIDE: Considered it. Tried it.
57. ASSISTED SUICIDE: To stop pain, maybe. An easy escape, no way.
58. SOUTH PARK: Seriously.
59. CHARITY? Yeah.
60. GIRLS WITH LOTS Of MAKEUP? Not too much.

WHEN YOU SEE THIS NAME YOU THINK OF...
61. Ryan: Beard
62. Bob: Monkhouse
63. Zack: Screech
64. Danielle: Steele
65. Drew: Walsh
66. Stacey: Blonde
67. Stephanie: Rooke
68. Brian: the Brain.
69. Jessica: Chambers
70. Jason: and the golden fleece
71. Meghan: cheerleader
72. Caroline: My Mum
73. Heather: 'The Heathers'
74. Aaron: Ryan's brother
75. Amy: the best place to get clothes from
76. Lisa: Winter
77. Nathan: Clark. My Ex. I scratched NC into my arm. Stupid idea.
78. Will: Young >_<
79. Paul: Lyon ^_^
80. Eve: Adam
81. Cody: Boy Meets World?
82. David: My cousins ex boyfriend. Looks like a fitter version of Dom.
83. Veronica: Black.
84. Katherine: Katie Hodson
85. Catherine: Wheel
86. Melissa: Joan Hart
87. Laura: from Hollyoaks. The psycho bitch.
88. Amanda: thick black rimmed glasses
89. Billy: goats gruff
90. Justin: curly hair
91. Ricky: Bianca
92. Prestonario: ....
93. Jacob: Bible

WHICH IS BETTER
94. FOOD OR DRINK: Food. Although drink is necessary.
95. LAKE OR OCEAN: Ocean.
96. TV OR RADIO: Chris Moyles kicks ass. Otherwise its TV.
97. GOING TO THE MOVIES OR RENTING A MOVIES: Going to the movies. Good atmosphere. Despite the annoying Kevs.
98. BSB OR *NSYNC: BSB = Boy-bands Suck <b?Balls
99. 1 PILLOW OR 2: Two.
100. HOT OR COLD: Cold
101. NICE OR MEAN: nice
102. JOCK OR BRAIN: Brain. Muscles can't tell you special things.
103. DROP DEAD GORGEOUS OR JUST GOOD LOOKING: Good looking. Drop Dead Gorgeous people are too pretty. Too fake.
104. HUG OR KISS: Huggle ^_^
105. HOCKEY OR FOOTBALL: Football
106. ABERCROMBIE OR AMERICAN EAGLE: American Eagle
107. JEN OR JOEY: Jen. Joey's a bitch.
108. RED OR BLUE: Heh. Those were my exact words. Blue.
109. EMINEM OR WILL SMITH: Will Smith. His ears make him cute. As well as his personality. Eminem, he's a white boy whore bitch.
110. CARNIVAL OR AMUSEMENT PARK: Amusement
111. MACS OR IBM'S: Macs.
112. BRITNEY OR CHRISTINA: Christina has a better voice, however I feel that they must both be shot.
113. WINTER FRESH OR DOUBLE MINT: Double Mint
114. BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE? Yep.
115. WENT SWIMMING IN THE OCEAN: Yeah. Fucking cold.
116. SWAM IN A LAKE: Nope. Although I mite... (my pond is a lake)
117. PEED IN A OCEAN: Yeah!! Its a tradition!
118. PEED IN A LAKE: Er... no.
119. PEED IN A POOL: Yeah, I couldn't be arsed to get out. I did it next to my dad and swam away. Heh heh.
120. GONE SKINNY DIPPING : Noooooooo.
121. CHEATED ON A TEST: Yeah.
122. LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: Yep.
123. FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH?: Not after watching Psycho, and then watching 'What Lies Beneath'
124. FELL ASLEEP WHILE EATING: Nope.
125. GONE TO CHURCH: Yep.
126. FELL IN LOVE: Yeah.
127. HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN: Yeah. Women suck as much as men sometimes. Huggles to her.
126: Time done with quiz: 20:09

(2 intruders | invade my privacy)

Time:	6:30 pm.
Mood:	discontent.

I'm thinking of discontinuing this LiveJournal. My user name won't suit me soon, so I think I might just go and get a new one. A new one for you all to read, that is. I already have a new LiveJournal but I want one aimed at all you lot. But I'm not sure yet. Maybe. Maybe not. Who knows.
Needing Razz week really much now. But I won't be able to see him till 2:00, and what the hell am I gonna do between 8:30am and 2:00pm?!?!?! *cries* If anyone is willing to take me under their wing, I'll be greatful. Mwah.

x x x x x x x x x x

PS. I am really infuriated with that anonymous poster. I wish I just knew who it was. But they're obviously a weak person to have to put their point across to us without leaving their name. Pathetic. I pity them.

(invade my privacy)

Time:	6:28 pm.
Mood:	sick.

Feeling crappy. No energy. I think I'm ill.

Wednesday, July 10th, 2002

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Subject:	hair??
Time:	7:32 pm.
Mood:	confused.

(invade my privacy)

Subject:	who'd have thought, eh....?
Time:	6:56 pm.
Mood:	uncomfortable.
Music:	linkin park - points of authority (remix).

Life is a very complex thing to you. You don't understand why there's hate, when we should all love each other. Most things bring you pain, slow painful emotional pain. You know someday you'll unlock the secrets of the universe, but right now all you want to do is lay down and think for awhile. Try not to cry.

Well fuck me. I wrote a HUGE ENTRY and then it somehow got wiped. RRRRRAAAAAAARRRRRRRR.

Ahem.

Yesterday I had the most serious talk with Chris, about everything. About me liking other people. About my online relationship with Dan Mc. About all the times I've considered leaving him. About all things I dislike about him and the way he acts. He took it reeeeally well, which is always good.

I have been feeling really... different recently. Usually I talk to 'Timmy', but for the last few days, I haven't. Its like I just lost him or something. I find myself staring into nothing. I don't go into thoughtful moods, I just find myself in a dark, empty, maroon room. Wierd. 'Timmy' is like my advisor, despite the fact he doesn't talk... or exist for that matter. But he helps me with my problems by just listening. Its great. Hmmm...

Not feeling myself at all really. Need a cuddle.

( I miss you )

Hmmm... I probbly need to take it easy. I'm exhausted, and I need vital Emma space. Apart from next week. Next week is Razz week. YAY.

x x x x x

Sunday, July 7th, 2002

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Subject:	no shit, shirlock
Time:	8:36 pm.
Mood:	impressed.

What is your sex?

Test created by Citizen
Will.

Friday, July 5th, 2002

(invade my privacy)

Time:	10:05 pm.
Mood:	determined.
Music:	Rubber Bullets - 10CC (they're so great!).

You are a Man's Man, or pretty butch. Either way, you put hair on the chest. Some people might see you as simple, and old fashioned, but you're just being you.

Find out what cigarette you are. Take the Cigarette Test by

Girlwithagun

Started a new LJ. If you find it, please don't let me know that you have seen it, because then I'll end up restricting what I write, and I don't want that to happen. So if you find it, keep it to yourself. Don't tell anyone where it is either. Just keep it quiet, okay?

Need a ciggie.

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Subject:	[hormonal.strange dreams. and what not]
Time:	6:30 pm.
Mood:	indescribable.

Well I cried non-stop all day today. I have no idea why. Stupid teen hormones. It all stemmed from the fact that I lost my wallet (that Chris gave to me) and I felt guilty, and then I just felt an overwhelming sadness engulf my entire body. Felt really strange.

( as I promised Razz... )
I am gonna sit and blob in front of the television tonight I think. New series of F-R-I-E-N-D-S so YAY! Also Big Brother. And I really hope that bitch Adele pisses off. Even though Jade does look like the female ogre from Shrek. That reminds me... must get revenge on Ryan for that same comment about me. Mwahhaha.

Ahem.

Hormones again.

Strange Dream
I discovered that if I mixed two feathers, a cucumber and >insert the other thing I can't remember< then you could get a secret mixture that only I could make, and it was really special and everyone was proud of me, and then they all asked me to made it again in front of them at night time, whilst we all sat round a fire and thats when I couldnt find the ingredients. Woke up.

Strange...

xxxx

Thursday, July 4th, 2002

(3 intruders | invade my privacy)

Time:	7:30 pm.
Mood:	bouncy.
Music:	kylie, of all things! blech.

wow.

well rob has YELLOW hair!! it looks really 'punk-ish'... or something.

spent the whole week with Razz. twaz nice. then went to the pub every day.

yesterday we watched the fast show live. "..household toilet tissssue, or as you call it - 'bog roll... ahhh ahhh..."

haha

it tickled me so.

ahem

can't really think of much to write at the moment.

meh.

xxxxxXXXXXXxxxxx

ps. thinking of askin andy baker if they need glass collectors on tuesday nights.... if anyone knows if they do, give me a bell. mwah.

xxxxx

Wednesday, July 3rd, 2002

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Time:	1:12 am.
Mood:	pleased.

just come back from the pub and I'm at nat's house, and for once I am actually happy. Things with Chris are good. Things with my friends are good (except Emily was a bit.. 'iffy' tonight...) and life in general is okay. Still feel shitty about how I hurt Dan Mc. but hopefully with time I can regain his trust/friendship. Hopefully anyway.
Rob was all depressed tonight. I wish I could cheer him up, but I can't think how.

I love Ria!!!! She gave me an amazing present. Lots of happy pretty things in a heowge box. Well nice :o) made me smile (but almost cry) and then she left without saying goodbye *cries lots* but hopefully i'll see her 2moro. YAY!

Well I'm knackered.

MWAH!!!!!!!

Love me :o)

Tuesday, July 2nd, 2002

(1 intruder | invade my privacy)

Time:	6:22 pm.
Mood:	ecstatic.

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RIA'S COMING TO THE PUB TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

ahem

Today was boring. But eh. Oh well.

( hehehehe )

Yay!!! I'm so excited to see Ria again!! WOOOOOO!!!

*giggles and does happy dance*

xxxxx

Monday, July 1st, 2002

(invade my privacy)

Time:	9:24 pm.
Mood:	amused.

( pictures as I am bored )

Hope that worked.

xxxxx

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